Finally!!!! We hope!

So everything went great at the wedding!! I am so glad I am never doing that again. I forgot how tired you get from all that work. Eh if I knew that I could make money from it, I would love to be a wedding coordinator and do all that. I love to do all the flowers and all the decorating. I really do love all that. But as every one knows we need to not take that many chances right now and be careful and frugal with what we have.
Just like every one else we are trying to pay off some of .... well all of our past bills and get some money in savings but just like every one else STUFF always happens. I wish , I don't play but I wish I could some how win the lottery or some large amount of money. But that will never happen. :)
Anyway my doctors called today, because they were reading my chart. I know right they actually read my huge book of a chart. I was shocked too, but as I have said before we have had four miscarriages and I always try to read up on the lasted stuff. I kept coming across in the articles about infertility how a gluten intolerance could hinder staying pregnant . Well the doctor called today and said that they were going over my chart and wanted to me come and have a gluten test done. I was kind of floored because like I said I do try to read up on things and I was going to ask if I could have this test done any way. The nurse told me today that if I am gluten intolerant than I have to obviously stay away from things with gluten in them but that 1 out of every 3 women who have infertility problems are gluten sensitive. So maybe this will be our ticket and with in a year we could have a full term pregnancy. Thank you to all who do pray for us we love you and are very grateful to you all .
The pictures are of Jeremiah and his sister Elisabeth and Jeremiah and Paul, our new brother-in-law. Then the last one is of Jeremiah and our two nieces Becca and Kaitlyn and then Josiah our nephew.

Getting ready!

So we are here in Washington with Jeremiah's family getting everything ready for the wedding. Jeremiah's little sister is getting married on Saturday, so we are taking a little vacation to help with every thing. His sister and brother-in-law also came down over from Florida. We are playing with all the kids and enjoying each other's company. But you know life is always fun so, let me just tell you. We have this really nice care that looks like a jag, yes I said looks like a jag but it is just a sonata but any way; we need to just get into an accident and total the thing. But any way sorry, we have in the last month broke the passinger mirror, hit a dog and broke the bummper and that is an understatement, and then today on the way to the store to get something for his mom we blew a tire. So tomorrow we get to go tire shopping in stead of regular shopping. But other than that we are have a great time . I will post some pictures to show you. This a picture of the happy couple

Update!

I just wanted to thank you for all the prayers. My Grandma is doing better, she will be going home on Tuesday. I know that she is not out of the woods yet. She still has a lot of physical therapy and occupational therapy ,but she is hanging in there. I am trying to get out there as soon as I can, just have to save up enough money to go. She will need more help in a couple of weeks so that is when I am trying to get out there. Thank you again for all your prayers and the continued prayers. This is the picture of my grandparents.

Ok so I am trying to get this to work . Please bear with me.

Ok so I have not posted in awhile.... well a really long time. I am so sorry... I have not had the computer and I am still learning how to post things from my Black Berry. Once I get all that down I will be a master. Well maybe not, but I will post more. Please pray for my Grandparents, My Grandma had a Mild stroke last Saturday and today I just found out that my Grandpa went in for a check up and found out he was about to have a heat attack. They both live in KY. They moved there, one because it is cheaper and two my sister has a house that they can live in for free. So ...... all the other times anything has happened I have always been close enough to get there and be there to help. But now that we are here it is kinda hard and expensive to get there. So I feel very helpless and this point. I am planning on going out there when my Grandma gets out of the hospital, but I don't know when she will get out it all depends on how well she does in her therapy. So please just pray. They are more like my parents then my grandparents . I love them so much. Ok so I thought I has a picture on my computer but I dont I have it on the zip drive. Sorry I will get one on here.

Baby Blues,pinks, browns, ect.....

Well this is kinda hard for me to admit but those who know me the best may already know this.
Today I was home sick from work and Jeremiah is gone ,(still at a basket ball tournament.) So I have watched TV, slept, slept some more, and just surfed the web. A couple of months ago. Mrs. Vicky, my Pastor's wife gave me a book called A Song For Baby. It is a book of poems about how a family loves a baby. She gave me this book with a really sweet letter that said that GOD give things to those who believe and to those who act on their belief. So in the letter she said to start getting ready for a baby.
Let me give you some history. Jeremiah and I have been married for 5 1/2 years , we did not care if we had a baby right away so did nothing to prevent. After three month of marriage found out that I was expecting , but when we found out it was to late , I was having a miscarriage. Then about three month after that I found out I was pregnant again and we were really excited. We told every one then about two mouths later I had another miscarriage. We could not get pregnant for almost a year after the second one the fertility Doc said that we had gotten pregnant to close together . We found out that my progesterone was low and I started to take Clomid. I finally got pregnant again and this time, we did not tell any one I wanted to wait. I went a little longer than the last and then lost that one also. I some times think of what they would look like, how they would act, what they would be doing. Our first one would have been five years old, the second one would have been four and the third one would have been two.
Last year I wanted to make my self look better and I needed to lose some weight so I got cracking on that and when I lost 60lbs I found our I was pregnant again. We were really excited and scared . We did not tell any one, only they people that needed to know. Because my Doc said any thing unusual and I would be on bed rest, from all the miscarriages I am high risk now. Everything was going great. My levels were good, they could see the baby on the ultrasound, it looked like a little flutter on the screen. We saw the baby everything was great, but I had to come back every week to make sure. We still did not know the due date for sure. We were going to tell every one at church once we knew the due date. So I went back the week after and they could not find the baby any more. By this time I was almost done with the first trimester. The longest I had ever gone. I was devastated. I don't think my husband knew what to do. I said I never wanted to try again. ( I knew that was just the sadness talking)
That pregnancy was I think the best and worst thing that ever happend to me. I know that GOD allows things to happen believe me I know . But no one told me that I could go through post-pardom. I went through it too. Wow I will never again think bad of some one who had ever gone through that again.
Any way to say all that Mrs. Vicky told Jeremiah and I that she is praying that we have a baby in 2009 ( or at least get pregnent with one) She told us to get the babies room ready. To put the crib up, get the room painted, get it all ready to bring the baby home. I have to say that I did not do it right away. I did not want to set the crib up I bought some things for the room but I would not put things up. Then one day I came home and Jeremiah was beaming. He had put the CRIB UP . I was horrified. I just starting crying. But then the more I looked at the crib I wanted to get the room ready. I am so glad that Jeremiah had more faith then me because the crib would still not be up.
Any way sorry for the long drawn out story. I found what I want to do the room in. I want to do it in a jungle theme. But the grown up way not the baby way and I was just looking on line and found some pics of what I think I would like. Here they are, well this is the one that I found on line so far. I got a great idea from a friend to make some of it.

Ok so I really like to Google. I like to Google just nonsense things, like weird words, my own name and my husbands name. So I Googled Jeremiah's name today and I found this sermon place that he was on so I posted it to my blog. I just thought it was the coolest thing ever!!!!! Ok so I am really weird , but that is alright. I don't even care. Any way I hope you all enjoy my husband's sermon. Oh by the way Jeremiah found out I was doing the love dare on him because we were doing it to each other. So now we are doing it together and WOW what a difference it makes. It is still just as hard but so much easier if that makes sense. Every one should get this book !!!!

Sermon Player

Ok so I have posted some links for everyone. They are some things that I enjoy. One is to the book I was talking about , one is to my church. And one is to my life saver spot( I have a black berry) I am still trying to learn how to use it and when I don't get something I go over there and get some unanswered questions answered !

Sorry it has been a long time. I have so much to say but I have to remember everything. Right now half of my mouth feels like it is big as a n elephant. ( I went to the dentist to get a couple cavities filled.) Any way no one know unless I talk,or try to drink or try to eat, or try to smile or try ........well you get the picture.
I started to read this book called the LOVE DARE ( from the movie FIRE PROOF) I am on day four. All I can say is wow I have learned things in the four day that I did not know.
If you are not familiar with the movie Fire Proof, it's a movie made by the same people who made Facing the Giants . Any way Fire Proof is about a marriage that is about to be over, the thing about the movie is that it's real it deals with things that really happen in life and what marriages really go through. Well through out the movie the husband gets this book from his dad. It is a 40 day journey to help the marriage that has gone sour. The first day you just start our by not saying anything negative to your spouse. No matter what!!! Now that one is really harder than you think, because some times you just don't think before you speak and some thing you may not think is rude may really be rude. Every day you build on the one thing you did the day before. Today on top of not saying anything rude, ( you try to do this every day ) I have to ask Jeremiah what things he thinks are annoying about me and things that upset him and not tell him what I think about him.
In the four days that I have done this I have noticed that I think more before I say something. I think before I make a face or anything. My marriage is not about to be over but it is not where I want it to be. I think over time you forget and you get use to them being around. The book talks about how you use to do things and think about the other person while you were dating but then you get them and stop. We should never stop thinking and doing thing for the other. It is also a Bible study in it slef. The book is not KJV but I just use my own Bible and then write the verses in. But is does have a lot of Biblical princables in it.
I will try to blog every day or so to let you all know how it is going. Plus it gives me some where to write about it. I know that it will make my marriage better than every before. I have learned things about myself that I thought were really not problems; but pulling myself out of the picture and trying to love Jeremiah the way he is right now! Just by working on loving him I have seen some faults of mine that I am trying to change. It is not as easy as it looks. But I know that I will be a better person and better wife for it. Please pray for me as I start this journey . I hope some one is inspired to make their marriage better.

Ok so I thought this would be funny for some one else beside me. I am the Assistant Director at our day care, and of course I have a favorite kid. She was a baby in the baby room when I was the teacher in there. So of course I am her favorite also... Any way the other day I was working in the office and like every other day she wanted to come in to the office and see Mrs. Rachel so of course I went down to her room to get her and them proceeded to bring back to the office to give her a treat. ( I keep apple cinnonmon cherrios in my desk ) So I gave her some, and then took her back to her class. Well she proceeded to tell me she had to go to the bathroom so I took her. ( Like five times) She told her teacher like five min later she had to go to the bathroom. Now mind you I just took and she really did go. So I came back and took her AGIAN ( I was the extra person for that moment and no one else had to go to the bath room. ) Any way ... she went agian and I took her back to class. Then like five min later I heard my name being called agian by the teacher ....... and you guessed it the little had to go to the bath room AGIAN ... ok really did she have to agian. I dont think so , so I said I just took you , really dont have to go.

Well like five min later I heard my name being called by the teacher ... and it was not pritty. So While she cleaned up the wonderful wet mess I took the little girl to the bath room to change her clothes and clean her up. When I took her she kinda giggled but I did not get what was going on yet....I just thought ok just helping the teacher.

So I get her all cleaned up and I go back to the office and start working when you guessed it.......
I heard my name She had to go to the bath room this is may be twenty min after the last feasco.
I said no you just went you can wait like every one else. ok if you saw how much pee could come out of one little girl and then she said she had to go agian I thought there is no way. So I did not take her. well she did it agian .... peeded herslef. When I took her in the bathroom to change her I realized that I had just gotten played by a two year old. The dead give away was when she laughed and said I got my Rachel. I knew you would come to get me I love my Rachel.
Ok so I did not know whether to be really mad or be overwhelmed with love for her.

Needless to say I told the teacher not to call me for the rest of the day and I told the little girl that I would not come by to see her for the rest of the day . ( I felt like a heel) So that day she had a total of five accendents to see if Mrs. Rachel would come to get her. The next day she tried the same thing but this time I was smart. SO that cured that one really fast. Any way she still is my favorite and she knows it but now we have to have the talk every morning that we will use the potty like a big girl or Mrs. Rachel will not be able to give her any more treats. So We have not had that problem any more.

I just thought it was very humorus that she loved me so much that she would pee her self just to see me . I should be flatterd right???? ( She is just to smart for her own good.)

Well I have found one of the greatest deals in a while. I went to the mall to get some perfume at VS cause they are having their semi-annual sale. I always park at JCP ( I don't know why but always do) Any way I was walking through and saw huge signs hanging from the ceiling. All the signs said BUY ONE GET ONE FREE. I had to at least go look I could not just walk on by come on. I went over and started to look at all the coats. I really did need a nice winter coat. I lost 60lbs last year and the coats that I did have I gave away ( they got way to big.) So any way I thought well if I find one that I really like I will look for another one. So to make a long story short I walked out of JCP with two new winter coats for only $100 which I thought was not a bad deal. I was wearing a coat that was all ripped up inside. It really was not that warm anymore. Ok so I bought it for $5 at good will but it did the trick for like a year. I got my five dollars out it .
I don't know how long the sale is going on so you might want to go in and see today. Come on you know your kids need new coats and so do you.

Oh one other thing. This really has nothing to do with saving money but, I am in our churches valentine play. Ok those who know me know that I don't like to be in front of people. I do sing occasionally at church but right after I do I just want the earth to swallow me up and I don't want to talk to any one. Well I got asked to be in the play I thought about and I said yes, well because they kept asking and asking and asking. So I said yes. Well tonight is the very first reading of only like, well very little. We only have like four weeks if that to work on the play. So needless to say I am very scared well not so scared yet I am really nervous. The only part I have really ever had in a play was to be a extra chicken in the Little Red Hen. I did not even say anything and I still messed it up. And I when I got the script for this play I found I out I have like one of the big parts. I don't know what I was thinking. I guess those of you who will go to the play will let me know how we all did I hope you all enjoy. :)

Wow it seems like a long time. I have so much to say and I can't remember everything I wanted to say. Jeremiah went out of time last week and took the computer with him, and it is kinda hard to post from my phone. ( well the thing about it, is that I am still learning my phone. I just got a blackberry and have not mastered the art of it yet.) Everything has been so busy here, we have been fixing up the mess at the church and then at the Day Care also. We found out we has some water damage in the phone lines.
But no one wants to hear about all of that boring stuff. I found some great stuff the other day when I was at Fred Meyer. I have been eyeing these great long stem candle holders ... for like ever it seems like but they were just way to much money. But for some reason every time I go in to the store I was stroll down the aisle they are and just stare and wish that I could have them , to put them on top of my piano. Well, like I said I was in the store the other day ( of course while Jeremiah was gone) and I thought I will just go look at them and daydream. But they were gone ... I was a little heart broken for like a second. Then I thought, oh well , and went about to get the things that I had gone in there for.... Just then I saw some thing out of the corner of my eye. Was it... no it could not be.... but yes it was.... but no... yes it was so of course I had to look. Just like always I had to look at the price ( like I thought it would change or something) but yes they were they were in the price range that I was willing to pay for. They were only five dollars by the time all the EXTRA savings were taken off I was so excited. I of course bought them and could not wait to get them home to put candles in them to see how beautiful they really were. And yes they were everything I had day dreamed about for all those long months. I will take a pic and post it . ( Have to but for tea light candles )
Ok so we are starting the Dave Ramsey thing. So of course we are being very tight with our money. We really want to buy the house we are in but only will be able to do so if we get our finances in order. But I really needed some more nylons but we really could not afford it this week ( ok Jeremiah does take care of me ) I was just going to have to just wait till next week. well I went to the dollar store to day and GOD blessed I got the really nice Silken Myst nylons at the dollar store and yes you guessed it for only a dollar. I got 6 pairs for six dollars I am still really excited because I don't buy those because they are just not in my tight budged and really they don't last that long but they sure do feel great ....well as good as nylons can any way . Well enough of my rambling I have to go to bed any way . Have a great week !!!!

It has been nice to go back to work!!

It was really nice to work today. With all the CRAZY !!!!weather we have been having I have only worked 6 days in the last 3 weeks. But that is qutie alright I needed the vacay!!! I do have to tell you all of the great finds that I found today. My husband really is not impressed so I have to tell someone. I think that they are some great finds.
Well I had to work late today because all the teachers were not able to make it into work today( we had some major flooding today. It took me almost an hour to get half way to work and then had to get back home.) Any way Jeremiah had to well did not have to but had volley ball and basketball tonight ( I am a little sad cause I wanted to play but that is ok) Any way I wanted to go some where besides home so I thought I would go check what the stores had for left over Chirstmas stuff. I decided that I would only spend ten dollars and that is it. I found bow for $.22 and 100ft of really expensive rapping paper for $1.00 but the greatest thing that I got today was my tree bag. I broke the zipper on the one that I had so I needed to get another one since I was putting it out in the shead. I found this rolling , yes I said rolling tree bag for only $3.74 I am really excited about this; and let me add so is Jeremiah because that means he does not have to carry the thing all the way to the shead.!!!:] One more thing Jeremiah brought some people over after the basketball thing and I had not made dinner so I said I would make pizza and he said he wanted to get another one just in case. So he went to Papa Murphys and they were just closing but they had a pizza some one did not come and get . So they gave it to him for $7.00 he was really excited about it. They funny thing is he has been teasing me since I started the blog and the frist thing he said to me was.......... "ok you have to put this on your blog" I thought that was really funny. Any way ok I have to go to bed . I am having so much fun doing this Thank you all for reading my random words of nothingness. :)
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The new year!!!!

Wow I can not believe we are already in to 2009, what happened to the time. I have been through alot this past year and have learned some very valuable lessons from them. There were so many that I thought I would share the most proament one. Earler this past year I found our that I was preganet and was so very excited as to the fact that I have had miscarrages in the past. My husband Jeremiah and I were so excited but also nervous to tell any one because of our earlier experances. Everthing was looking good I was almost over the 1st tramaster hump and then it all stared alover again. We went in for the ultrasound ( mind you I have early ones because my history) and we got to see the baby. :) But had to come back for some more tests the next week and another ultrasound to find the due date. We went in and I already knew something was wrong, and found out that God wanted to take our perfect baby home to be with Him along with his other siplings. I of course was devstated; even now it is hard to post this with our crying and shaking.

I found out the hard way that even though you dont actually give brith to a baby you can still go through post pardum. Only I did not know at the time that I was going through the post-pardum. I just thought I was a horrible person for all the horrible thoughts I was having. ( let me say I thought that is was as bad as this. ) I have a new found respect for those who have gone through this. I am greatful to God to have experianced this depression as I would not have been able to help some ladies in my Sunday School class with some of the same issues. Dont get me wrong I am human and I have had my days of pitty for my slef, but looking back at this past year I know that I will someday see, hold and touch the babies I have not been able to see, hold, and touch on this earth; but I will in turn see them in heaven.
I do think of them often and how they will look and feel and sound like. But that is only one of the many reasons to only want to go to heaven even more.

God has truly blessed me with much more than I could ever even imgain, and I dont want to dwell on the negative in life. The Bible say that it rains on the just and the unjust. And nothing has happend in my life that God has not had veto power over. I only want to be what He wants me to be and needs me to be. Until then I am only living for me I dont want that to happen. I want others to see Christ in me and want to come to know Him.
I know that in His time He will give me the baby that I so despreatly long to hold in my arms and call mine. But until then I want others to see Jesus in me .

Above all the resaloutions I have made for 2009 this is the utmost prayer that I have is that others would see Jesus in me. That I would be the servant that God needs me to be and not worry what others think or say about me. I just want to please Him. God says draw nigh to me and I will draw nigh to you. ( well that is really bad paraphrasing.:( )

To all you who have ever lost a loved one please dont despaire God is there to hold you up ......if you let him. Let your friends help you in your tough times, they give encouragement that now one else can give. Thank you to my good friend who loved me in the even unloveable times and let me figure out who I would become through all this. Thank you...... I love you!!!!