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Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Baby Blues,pinks, browns, ect.....
Well this is kinda hard for me to admit but those who know me the best may already know this. Today I was home sick from work and Jeremiah is gone ,(still at a basket ball tournament.) So I have watched TV, slept, slept some more, and just surfed the web. A couple of months ago. Mrs. Vicky, my Pastor's wife gave me a book called A Song For Baby. It is a book of poems about how a family loves a baby. She gave me this book with a really sweet letter that said that GOD give things to those who believe and to those who act on theirbelief. So in the letter she said to start getting ready for a baby. Let me give you some history. Jeremiah and I have been married for 5 1/2 years , we did not care if we had a baby right away so did nothing to prevent. After three month of marriage found out that I was expecting , but when we found out it was to late , I was having a miscarriage. Then about three month after that I found out I was pregnantagain and we were really excited. We told every one then about two mouths later I had another miscarriage. We could not get pregnant for almost a year after the second one the fertility Doc said that we had gotten pregnant to close together . We found out that my progesterone was low and I started to take Clomid. I finally got pregnantagain and this time, we did not tell any one I wanted to wait. I went a little longer than the last and then lost that one also. I some times think of what they would look like, how they would act, what they would be doing. Our first one would have been five years old, the second one would have been four and the third one would have been two. Last year I wanted to make my self look better and I needed to lose some weight so I got cracking on that and when I lost 60lbs I found our I was pregnantagain. We were really excited and scared . We did not tell any one, only they people that needed to know. Because my Doc said any thing unusual and I would be on bed rest, from all the miscarriages I am high risk now. Everything was going great. My levels were good, they could see the baby on the ultrasound, it looked like a little flutter on the screen. We saw the baby everything was great, but I had to come back every week to make sure. We still did not know the due date for sure. We were going to tell every one at church once we knew the due date. So I went back the week after and they could not find the baby any more. By this time I was almost done with the first trimester. The longest I had ever gone. I was devastated. I don't think my husband knew what to do. I said I never wanted to try again. ( I knew that was just the sadness talking) That pregnancy was I think the best and worst thing that ever happend to me. I know that GOD allows things to happen believe me I know . But no one told me that I could go through post-pardom. I went through it too. Wow I will never again think bad of some one who had ever gone through that again. Any way to say all that Mrs. Vicky told Jeremiah and I that she is praying that we have a baby in 2009 ( or at least get pregnent with one) She told us to get the babies room ready. To put the crib up, get the room painted, get it all ready to bring the baby home. I have to say that I did not do it right away. I did not want to set the crib up I bought some things for the room but I would not put things up. Then one day I came home and Jeremiah was beaming. He had put the CRIB UP . I was horrified. I just starting crying. But then the more I looked at the crib I wanted to get the room ready. I am so glad that Jeremiah had more faith then me because the crib would still not be up. Any way sorry for the long drawn out story. I found what I want to do the room in. I want to do it in a jungle theme. But the grown up way not the baby way and I was just looking on line and found some pics of what I think I would like. Here they are, well this is the one that I found on line so far. I got a great idea from a friend to make some of it.
First and for most I am wonderfully saved by Jesus Christ and I believe He is the one true way to heaven.
Secondly I am married to Jeremiah Glosser. We do not have any children yet. Well we have four in heaven and some day will get to see them.
I am from all over, I never attended the same school twice until I went to college. My husband works at Grand View Baptist church in Beavercreek OR. I am the assistant director at our day care and I love it. Jeremiah is an assistant Pastor here at our church.