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Well this is kinda hard for me to admit but those who know me the best may already know this.
Today I was home sick from work and Jeremiah is gone ,(still at a basket ball tournament.) So I have watched TV, slept, slept some more, and just surfed the web. A couple of months ago. Mrs. Vicky, my Pastor's wife gave me a book called A Song For Baby. It is a book of poems about how a family loves a baby. She gave me this book with a really sweet letter that said that GOD give things to those who believe and to those who act on their belief. So in the letter she said to start getting ready for a baby.
Let me give you some history. Jeremiah and I have been married for 5 1/2 years , we did not care if we had a baby right away so did nothing to prevent. After three month of marriage found out that I was expecting , but when we found out it was to late , I was having a miscarriage. Then about three month after that I found out I was pregnant again and we were really excited. We told every one then about two mouths later I had another miscarriage. We could not get pregnant for almost a year after the second one the fertility Doc said that we had gotten pregnant to close together . We found out that my progesterone was low and I started to take Clomid. I finally got pregnant again and this time, we did not tell any one I wanted to wait. I went a little longer than the last and then lost that one also. I some times think of what they would look like, how they would act, what they would be doing. Our first one would have been five years old, the second one would have been four and the third one would have been two.
Last year I wanted to make my self look better and I needed to lose some weight so I got cracking on that and when I lost 60lbs I found our I was pregnant again. We were really excited and scared . We did not tell any one, only they people that needed to know. Because my Doc said any thing unusual and I would be on bed rest, from all the miscarriages I am high risk now. Everything was going great. My levels were good, they could see the baby on the ultrasound, it looked like a little flutter on the screen. We saw the baby everything was great, but I had to come back every week to make sure. We still did not know the due date for sure. We were going to tell every one at church once we knew the due date. So I went back the week after and they could not find the baby any more. By this time I was almost done with the first trimester. The longest I had ever gone. I was devastated. I don't think my husband knew what to do. I said I never wanted to try again. ( I knew that was just the sadness talking)
That pregnancy was I think the best and worst thing that ever happend to me. I know that GOD allows things to happen believe me I know . But no one told me that I could go through post-pardom. I went through it too. Wow I will never again think bad of some one who had ever gone through that again.
Any way to say all that Mrs. Vicky told Jeremiah and I that she is praying that we have a baby in 2009 ( or at least get pregnent with one) She told us to get the babies room ready. To put the crib up, get the room painted, get it all ready to bring the baby home. I have to say that I did not do it right away. I did not want to set the crib up I bought some things for the room but I would not put things up. Then one day I came home and Jeremiah was beaming. He had put the CRIB UP . I was horrified. I just starting crying. But then the more I looked at the crib I wanted to get the room ready. I am so glad that Jeremiah had more faith then me because the crib would still not be up.
Any way sorry for the long drawn out story. I found what I want to do the room in. I want to do it in a jungle theme. But the grown up way not the baby way and I was just looking on line and found some pics of what I think I would like. Here they are, well this is the one that I found on line so far. I got a great idea from a friend to make some of it.

Ok so I really like to Google. I like to Google just nonsense things, like weird words, my own name and my husbands name. So I Googled Jeremiah's name today and I found this sermon place that he was on so I posted it to my blog. I just thought it was the coolest thing ever!!!!! Ok so I am really weird , but that is alright. I don't even care. Any way I hope you all enjoy my husband's sermon. Oh by the way Jeremiah found out I was doing the love dare on him because we were doing it to each other. So now we are doing it together and WOW what a difference it makes. It is still just as hard but so much easier if that makes sense. Every one should get this book !!!!

Sermon Player

Ok so I have posted some links for everyone. They are some things that I enjoy. One is to the book I was talking about , one is to my church. And one is to my life saver spot( I have a black berry) I am still trying to learn how to use it and when I don't get something I go over there and get some unanswered questions answered !

Sorry it has been a long time. I have so much to say but I have to remember everything. Right now half of my mouth feels like it is big as a n elephant. ( I went to the dentist to get a couple cavities filled.) Any way no one know unless I talk,or try to drink or try to eat, or try to smile or try ........well you get the picture.
I started to read this book called the LOVE DARE ( from the movie FIRE PROOF) I am on day four. All I can say is wow I have learned things in the four day that I did not know.
If you are not familiar with the movie Fire Proof, it's a movie made by the same people who made Facing the Giants . Any way Fire Proof is about a marriage that is about to be over, the thing about the movie is that it's real it deals with things that really happen in life and what marriages really go through. Well through out the movie the husband gets this book from his dad. It is a 40 day journey to help the marriage that has gone sour. The first day you just start our by not saying anything negative to your spouse. No matter what!!! Now that one is really harder than you think, because some times you just don't think before you speak and some thing you may not think is rude may really be rude. Every day you build on the one thing you did the day before. Today on top of not saying anything rude, ( you try to do this every day ) I have to ask Jeremiah what things he thinks are annoying about me and things that upset him and not tell him what I think about him.
In the four days that I have done this I have noticed that I think more before I say something. I think before I make a face or anything. My marriage is not about to be over but it is not where I want it to be. I think over time you forget and you get use to them being around. The book talks about how you use to do things and think about the other person while you were dating but then you get them and stop. We should never stop thinking and doing thing for the other. It is also a Bible study in it slef. The book is not KJV but I just use my own Bible and then write the verses in. But is does have a lot of Biblical princables in it.
I will try to blog every day or so to let you all know how it is going. Plus it gives me some where to write about it. I know that it will make my marriage better than every before. I have learned things about myself that I thought were really not problems; but pulling myself out of the picture and trying to love Jeremiah the way he is right now! Just by working on loving him I have seen some faults of mine that I am trying to change. It is not as easy as it looks. But I know that I will be a better person and better wife for it. Please pray for me as I start this journey . I hope some one is inspired to make their marriage better.

Ok so I thought this would be funny for some one else beside me. I am the Assistant Director at our day care, and of course I have a favorite kid. She was a baby in the baby room when I was the teacher in there. So of course I am her favorite also... Any way the other day I was working in the office and like every other day she wanted to come in to the office and see Mrs. Rachel so of course I went down to her room to get her and them proceeded to bring back to the office to give her a treat. ( I keep apple cinnonmon cherrios in my desk ) So I gave her some, and then took her back to her class. Well she proceeded to tell me she had to go to the bathroom so I took her. ( Like five times) She told her teacher like five min later she had to go to the bathroom. Now mind you I just took and she really did go. So I came back and took her AGIAN ( I was the extra person for that moment and no one else had to go to the bath room. ) Any way ... she went agian and I took her back to class. Then like five min later I heard my name being called agian by the teacher ....... and you guessed it the little had to go to the bath room AGIAN ... ok really did she have to agian. I dont think so , so I said I just took you , really dont have to go.

Well like five min later I heard my name being called by the teacher ... and it was not pritty. So While she cleaned up the wonderful wet mess I took the little girl to the bath room to change her clothes and clean her up. When I took her she kinda giggled but I did not get what was going on yet....I just thought ok just helping the teacher.

So I get her all cleaned up and I go back to the office and start working when you guessed it.......
I heard my name She had to go to the bath room this is may be twenty min after the last feasco.
I said no you just went you can wait like every one else. ok if you saw how much pee could come out of one little girl and then she said she had to go agian I thought there is no way. So I did not take her. well she did it agian .... peeded herslef. When I took her in the bathroom to change her I realized that I had just gotten played by a two year old. The dead give away was when she laughed and said I got my Rachel. I knew you would come to get me I love my Rachel.
Ok so I did not know whether to be really mad or be overwhelmed with love for her.

Needless to say I told the teacher not to call me for the rest of the day and I told the little girl that I would not come by to see her for the rest of the day . ( I felt like a heel) So that day she had a total of five accendents to see if Mrs. Rachel would come to get her. The next day she tried the same thing but this time I was smart. SO that cured that one really fast. Any way she still is my favorite and she knows it but now we have to have the talk every morning that we will use the potty like a big girl or Mrs. Rachel will not be able to give her any more treats. So We have not had that problem any more.

I just thought it was very humorus that she loved me so much that she would pee her self just to see me . I should be flatterd right???? ( She is just to smart for her own good.)

Well I have found one of the greatest deals in a while. I went to the mall to get some perfume at VS cause they are having their semi-annual sale. I always park at JCP ( I don't know why but always do) Any way I was walking through and saw huge signs hanging from the ceiling. All the signs said BUY ONE GET ONE FREE. I had to at least go look I could not just walk on by come on. I went over and started to look at all the coats. I really did need a nice winter coat. I lost 60lbs last year and the coats that I did have I gave away ( they got way to big.) So any way I thought well if I find one that I really like I will look for another one. So to make a long story short I walked out of JCP with two new winter coats for only $100 which I thought was not a bad deal. I was wearing a coat that was all ripped up inside. It really was not that warm anymore. Ok so I bought it for $5 at good will but it did the trick for like a year. I got my five dollars out it .
I don't know how long the sale is going on so you might want to go in and see today. Come on you know your kids need new coats and so do you.

Oh one other thing. This really has nothing to do with saving money but, I am in our churches valentine play. Ok those who know me know that I don't like to be in front of people. I do sing occasionally at church but right after I do I just want the earth to swallow me up and I don't want to talk to any one. Well I got asked to be in the play I thought about and I said yes, well because they kept asking and asking and asking. So I said yes. Well tonight is the very first reading of only like, well very little. We only have like four weeks if that to work on the play. So needless to say I am very scared well not so scared yet I am really nervous. The only part I have really ever had in a play was to be a extra chicken in the Little Red Hen. I did not even say anything and I still messed it up. And I when I got the script for this play I found I out I have like one of the big parts. I don't know what I was thinking. I guess those of you who will go to the play will let me know how we all did I hope you all enjoy. :)